Huskee & Hershey

I was tagged by Boo Boo to share what can my mom do to make me happy. This is a real tough one... mainly because there are soooooooo many things that can make me a happy... like yummy food, new squeaky toys, belly rubs, etc. (Gee, do you think it's because my expectations are too low?).

After some serious thought, the thing at the top of the list would be this - I want my mom to be happy. If my mom is happy, then I'd be happy too... though it'd be perfect if I can also throw in a new squeaky toy as well... *sheepish grin*...

There's something that I need your views on... I still owe Baby a candlelight din din for her barkday. There are a few locations that I shortlisted, but I just can't decide which one she'd like. So what are your views?

1) At the beach

2) Fine dining restaurant with city view

3) Poolside

Dad bought mom a book from Amazon called 'An Empty Cradle, A Full Heart - Reflections for mothers and fathers after miscarriage, stillbirth or infant death' by Christine O'Keeffe Lafser. The title of the book is so simple, yet meaningful. It's not very thick, only about 250 pages in total and mom finished reading it at one go cos it was so apt (and of cos, she read it through her tears). One particular paragraph stood out - 'Often the people around us can't seem to understand how it could hurt us so badly to lose a baby they think we didn't really know. Since there are no real memories of our little one's life, they have a hard time comprehending the depth of our love and grief. Though they don't mean to hurt us with their attitudes and comments, sometimes their words of comfort sound cruel.' I have previously shared with you about the unwelcome comments/ advice that mom's received from her friends and colleagues, so she could really relate to that paragraph. (Huskee's mom: I JUST got to find out late last week that one of my new colleague who sits near me is 6 months pregnant... I am genuinely happy for her, honestly!! But it really pains me so much to see her baby bump, especially since my Lucas will only be a month younger than her baby if I did not miscarry. Why did her baby get the chance that mine didn't? I find it hard to look at her right now because I'd start to feel so jealous, bitter and sad that I get a lump in my throat and I just want to cry!!!)

I have received so many supportive comments from all of you on my last post, assuring me you'll never 'foresake' us for blogging about all these sadness and unhappiness. I can only say 'THANKS'... Though 'thanks' is just a simple word, but still, it's meant to show your kindness is appreciated more than you can ever know.