She's also been trying to keep herself busy by doing up the new house. (From my acute observation, she's not really 'doing up' anything.. she's just unpacking cartons and cartons and cartons of her clothes, bags, accessories and shoes!! You'll be amazed the amount of stuff she has!!) Poor Dad's been trying his best to 'guard' the limited cupboard space he has before her stuff 'invades' into his territory as well.
Most of the furniture has arrived and all of the cartons have been unpacked. So to keep her busy for a longer time, I have taken it upon myself to pee all over the house. *defensively* Hey, so long as it keeps her busy, right??! RIGHT?? The next thing she wants to try to do is read up all the manuals for the appliances ('cos all the appliances are new). The washing machine for one, has been making the weirdest noise when she tried to use it the first time... (and the silly woman forgot to separate 2 new BLACK towels she just bought, so the entire load of clothes were discoloured... the lighter ones ended up in various shades of grey to be exact).
Huskee's Mama (Shane) here - I just want to say THANK YOU to all the lovely people who have left so many words of encouragement and support. Honestly, just a simple 'thank you' is not suffcient to express my gratitude... At the darkest point of my life, you have shown me a ray of light and it really helps to know that there are so many people who cares about us and Baby Lucas.
- Greg, Brooke, Opy and Charlie: Thank you for creating this little piece of Heaven called Dogs with Blogs... (And special thanks to Brooke for your lovely email)
- Helios' M and MM, Jack & Joey and their HC, Tommy and his parents: Thank you for the lovely flowers and teddy bear. I have given the teddy to Lucas and it is his very first (and only) toy. Teddy is now sitting proudly in the room that is supposed to belong Lucas.
- Boy and Baby's mom (Mas): Thank you for simply being there and for listening without judging
Boo Boo (J), Girl Girl (Eil) and Jay (Jul): Thank you for the very cute teddy and lovely card... She certainly brightened up my day!
Angel Lacy Lulu, Bear, Rocky and their mama Claudette: Thanks for checking on us to make sure we are ok...
- Scuba and his mom (Viv): For checking on me everyday without fail and for your love, support and patience.
To be honest, I am still looking for the 'closure' that I have been seeking cos I know I need to move on with my life and let my angel go to where he belongs. But it really is easier said than done. There is still a lot of bottled up questions, frustrations, guilt and anger... and now I am begining to question myself if there is something wrong with me for not 'getting over it'. Maybe the reason is because deep down, I don't want to 'get over it'... I don't want my baby to be forgotten.