Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Mom's been spending a lot of time watching TV and the channel that used to be her favourite before she lost Baby Chloe was 'Discovery Home and Health'. She used to watch it till the wee hours of the mornings when she could not sleep because she was excited by what was ahead. She enjoyed watching Jon and Kate Plus 8, Bringing Home Baby, Deliver Me, Make Room for Baby, 17 Kids and Counting... etc in anticipation for the arrival of little Chloe.

Now things have changed.. it pains her so much to watch these shows, knowing fully well that there won't be a baby to bring home this October, but yet, she chooses to watch it through her tears now because these are the things that reminds her of the time she'd shared with Chloe.

Sometimes she also gets upset knowing how Jon and Kate have 8 perfectly healthy and good looking kids but the couple bicker like all the time. Latest is that they are going through divorce... Then there is the Duggar family (from 17 Kids and Counting) who have a whopping 17 kids (the 18th is on the way). Then lastly there is Nadya Suleman, who gave birth to octoplets earlier part of this year. This is in addition to the 6 kids she already has, making her mom to 14 kids under the age of 8. Mom is only asking for ONE healthy baby to bring home from the hospital. Just ONE. Why is it so difficult?! Why does it seem so impossible?? Does it really require a miracle for this to happen??

Dad has taken one month no pay leave to be with mom and is planning to take her on a short vacation in mid-July after all her check-ups. Dad's birthday is this month and mom's birthday is early next month... they had initially planned on celebrating it by inviting friends over fo a BBQ but now there won't be any celebration. They also did not celebrate their birthdays last year because they lost Lucas in June, and history is repeating itself this year cos they lost Chloe in June.

**big sigh** Life is sad... at least it is for us now.

Tomorrow is mom's bestie's birthday, and she (Aunty F) was supposed to be the godmom for both Lucas and Chloe. Sadly, for both her birthdays last year and this year, mom wasn't able to give her the godchild that she wanted.

Here's a birthday card that we made for Aunty F on behalf of Lucas and Chloe.


Khyra The Siberian Husky And Sometimes Her Mom said...

This is soooo one of those times we are furry sad we live soooooo furry far away!

I would love to bring my floofy tail and my mom over and give woo all a hug!


Jan's Funny Farm said...

We're glad your dad will be spending a month with your mom. They really need each other right now. We hope they will be able to find lots of reasons to laugh with each other, even through the tears. Warm purrs and soft tail wags.

Lorenza said...

Like Khyra said, I wish I could be there with your mom to give her kisses and hugs in pawson!
Please, tell her that I am far far away but my heart is right there with you all.
Take care

Checkers said...

Huskee and Hershey - we feel so badly for your mom was adopted because her mommy couldn't have children - 10 years of trying with several failures along the way - then my mom had a lot of trouble too but she did end up with one child - maybe what is meant for your mom is a wonderfully "chosen" child like my mom is. Doesn't mean she needs to stop trying...but one day we know she will be a terrific mom to a very special child. We don't understand either why people like Jon & Kate are blessed with children - or that odd woman with the octuplets - But we do believe that there is a reason for everything and you just have to trust that everything will be okay...even tho it is painful now - One day you will have a very special baby there - I just know that you will.

Checkers said...

pee-ess - I'm sending lots of licks and sniffs - and my mom is sending really tight hugs for both your mom and dad - and belly rubs for the both o you!!!!!1

Boo Casanova said...

that's so sweet of your dad to get 1 month leave to company mom. i hope your mom be able to smile again after the vacation. she needed it.

wet wet licks


Bae Bae said...

That's nice of your dad to keep your mom company.
Please take care...

~ Bae

Abby said...

Hi, Huskee...

We're glad your Dad was able to get the time off to spend with your Mom...

Like Khyra...Me & my Mom wish we could be there to give you all a big hug...

Please know we are hugging you all in our hearts...

Much Love,
Abby & her Mom xxxxxxoooooo

Two Schnauzers from New England said...

Hi, everyone -

We are glad that your Dad is going to be spending some time with your Mom. Here are some healing licks and paw hugs for you.

Love -

Hershey and Kaci

Teddy said...

That's good that your dad will take some time off to spend with you and your mom. Maybe you can give your mom a big slobbery kiss on her birthday so she doesn't forget.


Simba and Jazzi said...

We are just catching up with all of this and our hearts go out to you. Sending hugs and light.

Simba and Jazzi xx

Pedro said...

Sorry that your mom is so sad. I'm sad for her too. Those shows are probably not a good idea right now. My mom was hooked on Jon & Kate +8 but always got annoyed at their disrespect for one another. The kids sure are beautiful though. Please tell your mom not to give up hope. A nice vacation with your dad will be a good thing. As always, we're thinking of you and your mom & dad.


Dawn said...

Please tell your Mom and Dad to have a nice, restful vacation. It's so important right now that they connect with each other. It's such an emotional time that it would be easy to lose each other too. So glad they will be able to spend the month together. That was very thoughtful of your Dad! Hugs to you all.

Ludo van Doggy said...

No, it not fair at all!
I know it will happen for your pawrents though. They should try very hard not to give up hope. I know you looking after them well.
~lickies, Ludo

The Great Rock Eater said...

So glad that both of you and your daddy can be there for your mommy during this heartbreakign time. We wish we could be there to hold her hand and dry her tears. But since we can't please tell her we are sending her lots of pug love and kisses and that she is in our hearts.

Martha Basset said...

There are times in our lives that are unbearably sad and we wonder how we can ever live through them.
Sometimes when we are sad we can only remember all the other sad times - it takes time.
There are no words that can take away your pain but remember for everything there is a season - including grief and sadness - Spring will return to your hearts in time - even though right at this moment you dont think it will.
Stay close to each other xxxxx

Moco said...

We do not understand much of what happens in the world today. We grieve with and for your mom. This is a very hard time for her and she needs all the love and support everyone can give. We are off to do a special circle of healing vibes for her. Know that you are loved from cyberspace.

Maggie and Mitch said...

Our hearts go out to your mom! We are so sad that she is hurting so badly!

Love ya lots,
Maggie and Mitch


Dearest Shane,

I read your post and the tears won't stop. Then I read Checkers comment and cried some more. Sometimes we try to hard to understand why things happen but only God knows why. Some day you will laugh again. It isn't my business but maybe an adoption would helo but that doesn't mean you won;t have a child of your on.

My sister Frances struggled for seven year trying to have a baby but ended up with two beautiful daughters after adopting a boy who to this day is as special as the girls are. Never give up and keep the faith.

God bless your husband for taking the time off to be with you. Snuggle with Huskee and Hershey. Mona is always such a comfort to me when I am upset.

My thoughts & prayera a ever with you. You can always e-mail me if you just need an outlet. I'm here for ypu all.


The OP Pack said...

Huskee and Hershey, we keep thinking good things for your mom and dad. Hang in there with them, give them lots of kisses, and things will get better with time. It will be good for to have some time away.

Hugs, the OP Pack

Stanley said...

Huskee & Hershey!

That card for Aunty F is very sweet. I'm sure she'll treasure it forever.

My girl and STella & I wish we could come over and curl up with you guys and your mama. If I really want to, I can be quite a good snuggler, and Stella loves to snuggle right in next to whoever is lying down. We'd wall your mama in a protective snuggle of goober love.

Please give her some more smooches from us and tell her to let herself feel what she feels. That's a sure way of starting to walk through it.

Please give your dad some extra juicy goob smooches from us too. He's a sweetpea to take time off to be with your sweet mama!

We love you guys!

Goober love & smooches,

D0gl0v3r said...

Enjoy the vacation! :)

Chesney Cats said...

We are so sorry for all the pain your mom & dad are going through.

Our mama never lost a baby, but she was on fertility drugs for over 10 years & was never able to get pregnant. She understands how your mom feels watching those people with all those kids & just wanting one so badly. It just doesn't seem fair.

We are praying that your family gets the miracle they so richly deserve.

Deefor said...

Your mom and dad have had a really sad time. It's good that they have some time together now. Give them a lick for me. My mom wants to send you a hug too.


Tee said...

We're so sorry to hear the sad news. Yeah, some ppl have babies so easily ... while some really struggle. Life is never fair.

Your mommy and daddy is going to take some time to recover so u be good to them u ok ...

We're sending our sloppiest kisses and warm wags your way for good cheer.

Licks and wags

Tuffy and the Dog Woods Pack

Gus, Louie and Callie said...

Oh we are so sorry. Mom says she is sending your Mom a big HUG. Maybe it will help her a big. HUGS always make us feel better..
Hopefully mom will enjoy her vacation and the pain will subside a bit..

Big Sloppy Kisses
Gus, Louie and Callie

Brownie said...

Our hearts go out to you. It's so ironic that the people who have the "mostest" sometimes don't seem to appreciate it all. You are in our continuously in our thoughts and prayers.

JB's Big World said...

We are sending hugs over to your mom and dad. It is great your dad can take off time to be with your mom. Huskee, you look very sad in your picture today.
Hugs and purrs over to you all,
JB, Chester and mom deb

Lady Kaos said...

Mom hasn't been able to watch those shows for a long time, either. I'm glad your mom and dad are taking some time for themselves. I wish they could come here for vacation! I have a feeling our dads would be completely bored though because our moms would be so busy gabbing and hugging and crying and who knows what else! lol
Love you guys!!

Raising Addie said...

That is really great that you dad will be off for a month. That will give your parents some time together with their favorite pups!

Our mom use to watch Jon & Kate plus 8. Even though Kate could be not nice sometimes, at least we thought they were a great family. Then all of the "truth" came out. It really made us sad.

We don't watch much TV but King of the Hill always makes us laugh... must be because we live in Texas. BOL!

Hang in there dear friends. It will get better. Huskee go give your mom a big snuggle and kisses from us!

Lots of Luv & Kisses
Addie, Lucie, and Hailey

happy said...

It's so nice of your dad to take time off to be with your mom. Here's a big hug for your mom. Stay strong. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Hammer said...

Dear Shane and Mark
We are feeling your pain and wish there was something we could do to help you. Our hearts are with you both, as well as our dear friend Huskee Boy, his Maid and Hershey.
Lots of Love from Hammer and his mum and the rest of our family

Maggie said...

Me and mommy give allllll the hugs and kisses we've got..
a word from mommy..

faith does move a mountain..

you can GO DISABLE


licks and kisses from me


Agatha and Archie said...

YOur pain is felt all the way across the computer and into our house. We too wish we could come and cuddle next to you but you have the best things right there.......We are sending you hugs across the computer and gentle licks.....Love A+Ao

Joe Stains said...

We sure are sending lots of hugs over the miles. We hope they reach you. We think a little vacation might be nice, we hope it helps you to heal a bit. *hugs*

Mango the Maltese kiddo said...

Dear Auntie Shane,
The 24 weeks you shared with baby Chloe is precious. Those beautiful memories will be with you forever. Uncle Mark is a very supportive husband who cares for his family, my eyes moistened with tears when he said he "thank mum for all the pain she has gone thru. Shane, you're the best thing that ever happened to me."
Dear Auntie, you and uncle Mark are one of the best parents I have ever seen. I wish to be one of your child too!
Mango's Mom here: Huskee and Hershey, the slipper toy that Mango received from you turns out to be the best gift ever.
He sleeps with it, tosses it for hours and shows all his excitement playing with it. The first 18 months of his life Mango was with a breeder who confined him with other maltese pups in a small playpen, he had no private toys to play with. I bought him many toys but he showed no interest, until you sent him the slipper. He holds the slipper everywhere he goes. One time he tossed the slipper onto the air and picked it up and tossed it again then all of a sudden, the slipper disappeared in front of my eyes. I helped him look for it for a while, didn't know why it vanishing like that until a few days later, I found it fell into the other side of the bed next to the wall. Haha, he tossed it so hard that it flew across the bed but both of us didn't see it flying! I taped him while he was playing with the slipper, I'll send it to you with other pressies, k Huskee and Hershey?
Take good care of your mom and dad.
Love y'all