Tuesday, October 13, 2009

My spy told me that the little monster hijacked my blog last week and was pretty shamelessly telling the world the nice things that she did for mom, so I told myself I have to regain control of my blog before she wrecks even more havoc.

Oh and Mango Major commented on the last post by Hershey that I should 'come out of the closet and get over myself already.' Hmmm.. do you think this is what he means?? And how did he know that I was hiding in the closet at the first place?? Eeekkkkkkss... he's a psychic doggie!!

Ok I am outta the cupboard now but sad to say, my fur still hasn't gotten any much longer.

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We'd be taking a hiatus and not be blogging for a short while because the assistant/ typist/ the one with the opposable thumbs aka Mom, had applied for 'annual leave'. Tomorrow is supposed to Chloe's due date and mom is having a hard time coping with the fact that there's no baby coming home. She's not in denial, but just having a hard time dealing with 'what should have been'. It is a very difficult time and we want mom to do whatever that she feels comfortable with.

Before we go, here's a tribute to our dear, sweet Chloe. Always missed, forever loved.

Shane here: Initially when we found out that I was pregnant, Mark downloaded an application onto his iPhone which contains a list of baby lullabies. We'd sometimes play it to Chloe in the quiet peacefulness of the night before turning in. I had always thought that this application will be handy when Chloe's born so that we can play those lullabies to her no matter where we are. Little did I know that although it served the same purpose (i.e. lullaby for Chloe), it was under a very different circumstance.

On that faithful afternoon on 26 June 09 when I was lying in the hospital bed holding Chloe close and trying my utmost to memorize her tiny, perfect features, Mark whipped out his iPhone and played 'Brahm's Lullaby' because he wanted Chloe to listen to the song that she had been listening to when she was still in her mummy's tummy. He wanted her to depart this strange, new world with something familiar so that she would not feel so alone or afraid... and she'd know that her parents are right there beside as she takes her tiny, wobbly, baby steps to join her big brother Lucas.

The doctor and all the nurses had left us alone in the room so that we could spend some personal time as a family with Chloe. The eerie silence in the delivery suite was broken by the sweet melody of that song and my sobs... It was a near 'perfect' family moment for us, it's only 'near' perfect because Lucas was missing from it and Chloe would soon be leaving us to join her brother, leaving behind her heartbroken parents.

Yes, I did want that lullaby to lull my precious baby to sleep one day, and she'd wake up contentedly from that sleep, look into my eyes and give me a sweet, toothless smile. However, in real life, although my darling baby did go to sleep listening to that song, she'd never wake up from it.

Chloe sweetie, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite... (please tell Lucas that we haven't forgotten him and that we love and miss him so much too).


Dawn said...

I am so so so very sorry. I will miss hearing from you, but you must do what is right for you. Please know you will be forever in my heart.


Maggie and Mitch said...

You have mom in tears!
Give your mom lots of hugs from us, Huskee! We'll be right here when you get back.

Love ya lots
Maggie and Mitch

Noah the Airedale said...

Hey pals
Please tell your mum we are thinking of her. Time out sounds good and like Maggie & Mitch said, we'll all be right here when you come back.

Noah Willow Tess Lucy

Abby said...

Hi, Huskee & Hershey...

Me & my Mom send our love & lots of hugs...

Please take care of your Mom & Dad...

We will be here when you get back...

Abby & her Mom xxxxxxoooooo

Madi and Mom said...

Dear Shane and Mark,
Please know you are both in my thoughts and prayers as you cope with this very difficult time in your life. Shane you are very wise to take this time for yourself. We will be here waiting for you to return. I am a big Kenny G fan the video playing to his Sax was so touching. Madi says even though she can't travel to you she is with you in spirit. Madi and Cecilia (aka Mom)

Raising Addie said...


Shane please take good care while you are on leave.

Thank you for sharing Chloe's last moments with us. Even though her time on with you was brief, you both clearly gave her everything that you could. Our hearts continue to break for you both.

Huskee and Hershey... take extra good care of your parents ok. Lots of kisses and snuggles.

If you need anything, we are right here for you.

Lots of Luv & Kisses
Addie, Lucie and Hailey

P.S. Do you mind if we enter your Halloween pictures from last year in our contest this year? Since we don't have many entries, we are going to enter those that give us permission this year.

The OP Pack said...

That is such a beautiful and sweet lullaby. We know this is an especially difficult time for you, but just know that your two little ones are together looking down at you with love.

Hugs, the OP Pack

Agatha and Archie said...

We will be here for you when you get back...and we will be thinking of you and sending kisses while you are gone......A million hugs A+A

Deetz said...

Give your mum extra hugs and licks from me, ok? We sure do wish we could lick away the pain in your mums heart. Just looking at your precious face, I know is the best medicine for her. You look adorable.

Khyra The Siberian Husky And Sometimes Her Mom said...

As we shared on FB last night/this am, we are thinking of you and sending hugz from around the world -

Thanks for sharing the final moments you had with your angel - they were only the moments 'for now' -

One day you'll hold her again -

Until then, please know we are holding onto you in support -

Khyra and Phyll

Kasha said...

Can't really see the keys through my tears, but I can tell you both are just really special parents. Through your heartache you are able to make it a sweet and precious moment with sweet Chloe. This time on earth is just a dot on the timeline of eternity. Here's to the eternity you will someday spend with your wonderful children. Come back soon, but take good care of yourselves .

Piappies World said...

Hi Shane,

We know for sure that Chloe constantly watching over you, making sure that you are safe and happy all the time.

We will just be here awaiting your return.

Huskee and Hershey, do stay close to mommy and daddy and keep them in your love and care. We will pray for you always.

-Fudgie, Princess, Scrappy, Bullet, Frappie, Mocha and Sugar

Martha Basset said...

What a touching video - our thoughts are with you xxxxxxxxx

Sparky said...

You just made my human cry! Seriously, she's bawling. I rarely see her like this.

Huskee, tell your human mom that we are thinking of and praying for her. We know that Chloe and Lucas are both in God's hands, but we can only imagine how hard it is for you guys.


Brownie said...

gosh... we are so incredibly sorry... my hooman is tearing up right now. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Big hugs from all of us.

Lorenza said...

We just want to tell you that we are here for you!
Take care
Kisses and hugs
Lorenza and mom

Toby said...

Shane, as I listened to this lullaby, I can feel your pain and sorrow. Take as much time as you need and we'll all be here for you when you return.

Hugs and Kisses,
Joyce & Toby

Joe Stains said...

we are so very sorry and sending a million hugs to your Mom and lots of terrier kisses.

Hazel said...

my heart goes out to your mum. May god bless you.


JB's Big and Small Worlds said...

We understand and we are purring that your mom will be ok. Lots of hugs coming your way and we look forward to seeing you back soon.
--JB, Chester, CB, Armani and mom Deb


Dearest Shane,

Mommy is crying now but she wants you to know that this post was very special and the song expresses so much. We are always here for you.

I found a picture of Hershey and featured her today. Now I just need one of Huskee.

Sammy hasn't been paying much attention to me lately and I think I'm in love with Huskee, with or without hair. Do you think I'm not to old for him amd if he likes me?

{{{huggies}}}...Mona & Mommy too!!

happy said...

Shane,(Hug) have a good break. You're in our thoughts and prayers.

Huskee, you look adorable even with short hair. Don't worry, it'll grow back soon enough.

Cocorue said...

my heart breaks for the two of you and thanks for sharing your precious moments with Chloe with us......

take care Shane and Mark
don't claim to know exactly how you felt but your pain brought back memories of the day i lost my Su En when she turned 5 months

Gaucho Tibetano said...

You have jefa in tears!
Give your mom lots of hugs from us, Huskee! We'll be right here when you get back.

Martha Basset said...

Just to let you know we have been thinking of you - hope you are OK.

Mango the Maltese kiddo said...

Dear Shane,
I read your post as soon as you posted it started with a few laughs about Huskee "newly shaved" fur then my smile faded out.
I listen to your story from the day you received the good news about Chloe coming, Mark began to download baby lullabies. My tears rolled out blurred the screen, oh Shane, it's so unfair to keep you enduring the pain twice in a row!
Pleas keep the faith on, Shane. I always 100% agree with you for whatever you feel like doing: tattoo, take time off, ventilate on the blog, go on a cruise...
All of us love you so much, my little wonderful friends Shane and Mark.
By the way, please stop by to see Mango bragging about your pressies, love y'all.

Ike said...

How are you holding up? I can't imagine how hard this time has been for you. I'll be thinking of you.
and Ike

Amber said...

Hey Huskey and Hershey! Are you two behaving for your mom :) ? We feel very sad for your mom :( enduring in such difficult times really breaks our hearts. Please take care and have much rest.

Big licks!
Amber d Chi

Jan's Funny Farm said...

We're sorry we're late reading this post. This would be a hard time for you!

Purrs and tail wags.
And a prayer from Jan

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Marvin -The Hollow Hound said...

This must be such a very difficult time for you......

My thoughts are with you.

lots of love and many hugs,
Jeannie xxxxxx
oh and Marvin xxxxx