Today is mama's birthday but unlike all the previous years where she used to celebrate this day with much fanfare, i.e. countless dinners with friends and the traditional barbeque with the whole family (Mom's birthday and her sister aka The Maid's birthday is just 4 days apart so they always have some sort of a joint-celebration since they were young). However, this year is going to be 'quiet' cos she does not want to 'celebrate'. This is because other than being mom's birthday, today also marks another occasion. It is the 49th day since mama and papa lost Lucas.
My parents are not exactly 'Buddhist' per se, but they both have grown up in Buddist environments/ families, so they are more 'inclined' that way. Anyway according to the Buddists, 'for 49 days after death the individual wanders between the land of the dead and that of the living; after this period the mechanism of karma decides in which body it will be reincarnated.' So if you believe in this belief, then today will be the day when Lucas will 'leave' us and move on to the next chapter of his life/ afterlife (??). You may ask why is mama sad since it's a good thing that Lucas is moving on to a better place, well, she is very sad cos the thought of not knowing if they'll ever be reunited again pains her so much.
The one thing that brought some relief was that Jay's mom told mama that today is symbolic because after today, both mama and Lucas will have a new begining. And hopefully, it'd give Lucas the much needed chance to reincarnate and 'come back' as their next baby... well, just hopefully... Anyway, mama is clinging on to this thought and she is trying to focus on it so that she can get through the rest of the day in one piece.
Huskee's mom: Sometimes, simply trying to look strong and act strong can be so, so, so tiring...